We did have a difficult relationship, there were two years we didn't speak. But what is that compared to the eternity without us in the universe

I have the feeling that our atoms after death reassembling into other things in the universe in some way continue us although a little bit more spread out. So we go back into the soup maybe a little more integrated into it, but we're still entrenched in the fabric of the universe so it is possible that some kind of aspect of our consciousness continues forever. I already feel my integration with the entire universe although I do not see any special effects in front of my eyes.