There was the war in Ukraine where I saw little kids sprawled on the concrete and I was wondering what right do I have to write to my senators and representatives in Congress to send American kids to die defending other dying people, and then I read bunch of books on particle physics and then Tibetan stuff and also tried meditation which absolutely I cannot possibly do I'm just too fidgety. I'm glad it's April.
I know we also kill a lot of people around the world with impunity but the difference is that I can protest it and argue against it, and live.